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Þicture Ţalks → Feb '09

2009-06-02T05:38:00.004+08:00

well, nothing much happened in February, none special pic, none special event also, according to my calendar.. the only picture series i've captured was my old stuff when i cleaning my tool drawer.

Down the memory lane..

my pencil case used thru out almost my whole secondary sch life. typical metal pencil case, i think i got it during primary sch, a gift won frm a newspaper reading quiz.. its life was similar to that of a human life, borned fresh, meet challenges and gain experience, then it became old and rusty as the trace of time..

what's our value at the end of our life?

the inner part.. my secondary sch time's session badge was still stuck thr.. this is the space tht sheltered the tools tht been tgt fighting for my future.. it's small, but it fits them all..

*papa n mama ILY* =]

the 2nd sticker photo i had in my life. forgot when it was taken, but i believe it was during lower six, when all of us are still good friends tgt.. before alice got boycotted, before shu yee was attached, when tze chin was still mixing with us frequently, and before i leave the grp.

i miss the old happpy time we had tgt.. >"<

wooden key chain tht i bought thru silverho or massive postal order (邮购) when i was still in primary sch.. til now still dont feel like using, coz i liked them too much.. those were the time when i had the most freedom do anything, trading off my childhood of being loved by parents..

it's no easy..

the template tht i got it frm yakin tuition center during form6 Pengajian Am class. it's used for drawing pie chart, and might still useful to me, thou i no longer drawing any pie charts..

dont feel like throwing it away.
but how long can i still keep them with me?

the lil bear tht i bought before xmas last yr tgt with a plush snowman, and a polisterine snowman. the plush snowman gone missing in klang bukit tinggi jusco after i went for a movie with someone i no longer friend with now..

it's not easy to meet something i like, but i lost them. i'm sad. ='[
dear bear bear, will u ever leave me someday?

*dear ILY. nvr leave me*

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Eta ღ
loved to be loved

Þicture Ţalks → Jan '09

2009-04-17T03:29:00.005+08:00

one week before ITP ended. we are all SLACKING~ LoLx!

planned to snap the working environment down. end up Ken get caught for playing games during working hour.. sowwie ken =x

one day before itp end. had our end-itp-dinner @ tony romas, sunway pyramid. ken, sekyen(ken's dear), kah fei, and sue ann =]

ppl sitting in the opposite row of ppl in picture abv. hui chen, kai siang, and loon. im not photogenic, i knw.. =[

large large onion ring.

my pasta. cant finish at the end.

loon's meal. forgot wat's its name.

they say the chicken is very hard and dry..

ken's burger. cant fit into the mouth.

cny. my cousin sister's writing. much better thn mine. =x

cny 2nd day @ cousin's hse. stuff for sale, brought frm some other country by my cousin brother. the atmosphere tht day was similar to those pasar.. xP

Sook ying's ROM - Regidtration Of Marriage. wanna snap the rings on their finger, but imma slow.. >"<

IIE WANNA GET MARRIED TOO~ anyone? =x

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Eta ❤
- feel like getting married -

Þicture Ţalks → Dec '08

2009-04-17T02:40:00.003+08:00

This is very late. I knw. so i decided to put all up at one goal. xP
Dec 2008, visited to sg and spent my xmas thr. =]
Visited few place, and met up with my closest audi pals. ❤

Beloved Char char @ Bugis.

Best audi pals :: Reeve - my audi papa, Char - my audi dear dear, Bear - char char's rl bf.. =]

penguin @ sg zoo. wondering y they are not in the freeze room.

orang utan @ sg zoo. a very huge one.

polar bear @ sg zoo. the fur is not white thou @@".

Note :: i like the environment of sg zoo. open air, some animals are not in cages too. <3

Best thing i found in sg. chopper ILY~ ❤

cameron trip @ 28-12-2008. Steam boat feast hoho~ >"<

canned longan in the tom yam soup. xP

dipping longan into tomyam soup. EVIDENT SNAPPED! hoho fai u're caught~ xD

bear the consequence on wat u did.. muahaha~

raw vege for penalty.

ruin-ing fai with raw vege.. buahahaa~ *evil grin*

raw vege. ready to action for penalties on loser of the card game - chim wu guai..

the god of tortoise~ 龟仙人。 ROFL~

upgraded version of penalty. biscuits in raw vege.

evolution in progress. vege + biscuits + egg

mint sweet in eggyork. >_<

duno which genaration liao.. coffee + oreo + egg

oreo + eggyork.. super advance sia~

conclusion :: super fun december.

moral of the story :: dun mess with us.. wakakaaa~ ROFLMSAONO~~~~~

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Eta
illustrated will full of happie memories ❤

ŎneFM - ρasses βy

2009-03-14T15:41:00.000+08:00

Went to visit 8tv and onefm studio yesterday
following Radio MMU

First gathered up at STAD
woah, I feel like Imma alien thr
so many ppl tht i dont know,
I believe neither them knwing me
I was just.. so old to them
been in the club for 4 years sial,
time flies so fast.. >"<

Glad I'm lucky to hv Edward, a junior accompanying me
been talking alot on the canto slot thing
and suddenly ideas are coming out like fountain
database for on-air resources la,
listener's analysis la,
forums la.. bla bla bla
*admiring myself*

Have had our lunch at bbq plaza in 1U
not my fav since the 1st visit
not having the preference to hv whole-meat-meal
and the food are not that special after all
However, we're atill hving fun playing with the food
fried the vege, adding the sauce too add the taste
stirring the vege using chopsticks
just like wat we do during CNY for Lou-Sang
FUN~~ xP

Went to TV3 finally, waited at the lobby for the tour guide
then the star-gazing phenomena appeared
which the DJs, more exactly, mandarin slot's DJs
keep bugging around the DJ called Lucas
whom is previously in mandarin slot n now is fulltime DJ in One FM
I don't mind if u were to say me jealous,envy or whatsoever
I just don't like, and not get used to those STAR-GAZING action
makes me feel like I'm an idiot

I will support, appreciate
but not chasing blindly like what most ppl did
for me, I believe recognitions n compliments are sufficient enough for those I like =)

We visited 8tv 8864 studio in turns, it is a VERY SMALL room
thn the coridor with whole bunch of tv programs logo
agn, not so into those logos,
feel idiot to take picture with those logos, totally pointless
so I have chosen to have some shots at the staff-listing board
which we dont get to see it anywhere else
not having the pic with me now, as it was taking by their camera

Finally was the OneFM studio
it's a small one
same as previous, we went in by groups
get amazed by the software they use
a console for broadcast control, RCS Software with 4 viewing panels / monitors
look so advance >"<
and the integrated sound editing software which
enable immediate editing of recorded voice-clips during talk-set break
look nice~ I would like to have a try
if I'm free n hv the chance
Wonder if I could download the software somewhr else without needing to pay..xP
**Tell me? if anyone happened to knw abt this.. =)**

The whole trip is rather boring before the last part
which we get to talk n hv some discussion with the DJs in person
we've met Sumi n Jane, but didnt talked much to them
instead
Edward n I talked alot to Kyan n Suki,
also the director of OneFM, which I happened to forgot what's her name
they were quite friendly
thx pals for sharing ur opinions n experiences with us
appreciate it <3

Thou they agreed and ask us to add them in FB
I dun get to see or knw which one was belong to
neither them added Edward, thou they are having his name card
well, understandable..entertaining rite?

Anyway, thx guys for everything
it is a joyful trip afterall, excluding the star-gazing part.=P
all best wishes for everyone

anyway, as requested by the director to help to promote
PLEASE JOIN MALAYSIA EARTH HOUR EVENT
off the light for one hour on 28 March, 2030 to 2130
contribute a lil to the earth, tht's what we able to do ^_^

Trying my best to off the light,
waiwai aka Eta =)

Happy B'day Pals ^_^

2009-03-13T02:24:00.003+08:00

Just went back from Winter's birthday celebration.
Not a very grand one, but it's relaxing.

The birthday boy owe me a yumcha session coz he TER-sms-ed the wrong time to meet,
made me came out early, and end up meeting them in the apartment.
Get to see the lengendary Dao Bing (hopefully didnt mis-spelled it),
and been chatting around,
about Winter's blurness
about FYP
about I was to get a part-time / contract-based boyfriend
LMAO~
for sure this is a joke
I not having a market in MMU anyway
even Louis also dun wan me..
LOW SELF-ESTEEM LE LEH.. >"<

phototaking session took a long time after eating birthday cakes.
started off with group photo, and ended up with winter+every single ones.

Recalling last week or two's gathering in Neway KTV
celebrating Pin's birthday
and the Valentine's-week's Wednesday
jog,dinner together, and finding me out for drinks in Puchong
This is something rare, as I seldom get involved in their activities ,And often felt isolated

Thx pals for letting me in
thou it seems a lil bit late as the semester is ending soon
I do cherish the moment and the chances to let me be part of u guyz
<3

Lastly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WINTER
and, Happy Belated Birthday to Pin and Shirley. ^_^

I do, cherish you-s,
waiwai aka eta.

Þicture Ţalks → Oct + Nov '08

2009-03-01T14:08:00.001+08:00

Learn to do according suggestion. More pic n less words? Let's try~

Sicked. Someone made chrysanthemum tea for me. thx =)

Drunken Lemon broke his car tyre in the middle of the night.

Lemon's treat for saving him from the roadside.

Cute muffins come tgt with the ice.

Newly-bought Kon starring at the food. End up kidnapped by me. xP

Chocolate - the one i miss the most for the brking up incident.

Bored n conteng on fai's hand b4 final exam.

First visit to Quattro in Oct. Like this kind of pic, but dun ask me y.

Eating tiramisu with chopsticks.

Visit to Ipoh, and caves.

Hand made present frm char, sg.

Kittens, but fai says they look more like rats. =x

After some animation/comic fair in TS. The tricky hand in sg wang.

Pyramid's living cabin. The snowman gone missing, the lil bear is lying on my study desk, the piggie is hanging on fai's car windscreen, and the big bear is sitting back in the rack going nowhere.

Short enough? xP

Sign off le,
waiwai aka ξta
27022009
084025

i belong to nowhere

2009-02-28T21:11:00.001+08:00

Really wondering what is in my mind

This stupid woman is truely belong to nowhere
it is not a simply-put title
i truely own no feeling of where do i belong to

home?
once, when i started to accept my mom's problematic condition
and house condition is not as bad as now
then it is a big no for now
all kind of pressures are targetting me
kns dad,
stop saying u wanna kill mom, wanna run away and this and that
go ahead and go to ur whatever solomon island
and stop saying that u stayed because of sis and i
i'm sick of listening u keep repeating to everyone that u meet
JUST GET OFF if it is too tough for u to stay

i dont deserve to all the craps

need a new house?
go tell ur talented eldest daughter
she worked for so many years and wasnt able to get a house
and u keep complaining the house problem to me?

what hv i did wrong for u to keep accusing me as a bad girl?
did i take drugs? NO
did i run away from home? NO
did i get pregnant as what other girls in same road did? NO
i even never dye my hair as i wished to
i never give u a NO for whatever u requested
i tried my best to listen to all ur complaints
and i got stressed by ur sentences
and end up i got u saying me as a bad girl?

do i deserve these?

i lied that im staying hostel for the past 2 years.
this is to keep me away from the problematic u
and i did lived happily
but do u even noticed that i had been down for 3 days after every visit to home
or for every single call u dialed to me, and complaining house, mom, and ur life

why dont u call and tell her exactly the same thing u told me?

******************************************************************

i have to option but to admit my stupidity

he got his new ones
and why do i feel sad for that?
i thought this is what i wanted, so that it would reduce my guiltyness?

LMAO~ idiot me
why do i still bother how he would evaluate me if i get tgt with another guy?
he won't even bother
in fact he did it faster than i do

i feel envy
she will be more pampered than i do
but who to blame?
i gave up the best one
when i felt there's no hope to go on
i dislike his friends, especially that bitch
i dislike his family
i dislike everything around him
and his never-ended demand on sex

but he is good, undeniably

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i duno why, but ppl hardly get to see the real thing regarding me - im not cheerful, not optimistic, not positive
they thought, i got alot of friends
and they thought, i was lying when i say i got none

the fact is, i got none
and i got no reason to lie about

for the recent case
i'm not staying in the uni area
so there will be no one finding me for a chat
unless i find them 1st
no invitation from anyone of them for anyone one of their activities
because i stayed too far, and im not cloase to them
even i was just beside them when they are planning it
and i just kept quiet
i knw i will not get involved even if i had voiced it out
i just knew, coz i tried.
who cares? i'm just an outsider, an abadoned one.

so i will just staying at home
watching piles and piles of pictures of their outing in facebook
and kept quiet
because -- I CAN JUST WATCH

quoting louis' sentence "that's why i seldom talk to ppl dat is usually not with me"
i guess this is true to most of the ppl
so do i
so i got rejected from entering somewhere near them
dear louis : i got no idea on how to be the one that "usually with u"?
teach me?

outside?
yup, alot of nominal friends
which are those who keep saying "find one day yamcha" when met coincidently
but never did
there are too much of them i cant share my problem with
coz they dont even bother to care about

the only ppl who would care
is the one who is after me
and they were gone if i rejected
or no longer couple with me

being friend after brking up?
i used to belief it's possible
i used to try
and i fail
and i came out with another set of conclusion
no one will bother what happened to their ex
coz no one will bother abt sth not benefitting them
as ex = no-longer-beneficial-ppl

SO I GUESS I SHALL TRY TO SWITCH BACK TO MY PREVIOUS WALK-ALONE STYLE OF LIVING.
need no one, hoping on no one, care no one.
i knw it's hard, but it is the trade-off btwn doing try hard, of feeling hard. isnt it?

this kind of post will not appear frequently
as i have no intention to make this blog to be used as
a path to rant, to blame, or to flame.
this should be a happy one, and i placed the sad one to somewhere else, in another language.

my apology, if those above causes harsh feelings on u.
nvr meant for hurting anyone, u dun deserved to get hurt by a not related person, isnt it?
sorry, sorry, and sorry.

Uni-mates series • 1→ Follow up

2009-02-28T04:48:00.004+08:00

So I had posted a status msg on my msn,
and he read, and response.

According to him,
I was supposed to edit the post.
Erm, well, I'm too lazy for it,
so will jz post up the ss of the chat
to do the "clarification" for him.

Sorrie pal, this is the best a lazy woman can, and will do.. xP

By,
evilish waiwai ^_^

Uni-mates series • 1→ Louis ♂

2009-02-27T06:09:00.010+08:00

So Louis was suggesting me to put pictures in my blog posts instead of writing a whole bunch of words, then I was saying to include his photo in it and give some detailed description on him, and I remembered he did showed his encouragement for me to do it.

Give me a moment while I’m digging deep into my databases.

Ok, this is Louis Gan, my uni-mate, one of the members from B2-1-2, the gang I am always hanging around with recently. I love to pronounce his Christian name in Chinese pronounciation, and that would be Loo-ee-si. xP

Not sure when do we get to know each others, same apply to the whole bunch of B2-1-2-ers, but I did recall that we first talk to each other during a group assignment (if not mistaken la =x). The 1^st picture is taken by me for fun outside Dr. Goi’s office while waiting for his FYP consultation, and the 2^nd was taken by Kevin using my phone while Wei Seong is presenting his FYP.

Undeniably, he is a pro. Involved in web designing utilizes all kind of Adobe applications, pro in writing programs, dean list student, hosting a PROFESSIONAL blog (this is what he said to me) on antivirus and calling himself Dr. Safemode. A talented guy with bright future norh~ Never dare to compare myself with him sia, since I was so bad in many aspects. Luckily he is not in the same major as I do; else I would be trashed badly by him (even thou I am now, by the others same major ones). LOLX ~ O(∩_∩)O

Also, I would regard him as a weird guy, as what someone which I forgot who (I think is Wei Seong or Pin) mentioned previously. I wasn’t able to recall the reason WS saying so, but my reason for giving him this title was that, you will not know what is in his brain at a moment. And the story goes like this,

My dear char char tagged me in a note in facebook, I followed and tagged another 20+ people as stated in the note, including Louis. Then not long after that, when I was joining them to buy lunch together, someone mentioned about this and he starts complaining me tagging him for nonsense rubbish. I have to admit that he was too good in expressing his dissatisfaction until I TER-annoyed a little and got him removed from my tag list.

Well, that is not the weird part.

Few of us went jogging in Cyberpark to train for our KK trip, then dinner followed by valentine’s- present-hunt in Jusco. He replied me “u deserve meh?” when I joke to ask him buy a valentine’s greeting card for me (owh it’s hurts~), so I posted it on my facebook status and said that I’m upset for that sentence – “Waiwai is sad for Louis’s “u deserved meh?”” It was so coincidently B2-1-2-ers was on. WS showed his support to me, while Louis expressed his beh-song-ness with a just a sentence – “i dun deserve such comment”. Sounds serious isn’t it? Makes me change my status message immediately, scared me sia.

Then here come the weird part, they find me yamcha few hours after that. He looks normal like nothing happened. It is me that mistaken his tone or he is really weird? Haha~ whatever..

I was wondering what kind of response I will get after I posted this, will update in my next post. Anyway, he is indeed a helpful friend, and me helping me in so many matters, and I like to joke on him, as it was so fun to look at his reaction. Thanks pal for being my friend, and sorry for any offence, if there is any, never meant to cause any harsh feelings to you.(*^__^*)

Erm, lastly, do feel free to visit the mentioned PROFESSIONAL blog, http://www.drsafemode.com/

(See? I help to advertise your blog here, compensate back le hor ^_^ mai angry uh~)

•••••• uni-mates series #1 - ends - ••••••

up coming next - WeiSeong Lee =x

Signing off with best regards,

waiwai aka η

p/s: sorrie pals, i wrote a long post agian. unchangable larh.. xP

ITP - De End

2009-01-29T15:52:00.015+08:00

Yes, it is FINALLY, ended. And I feel like this post will be a mass ranting article, for the dissatisfaction buried deep inside me. KNS!

I don’t find it as fun as what seniors or friend mentioned previously, though we are having the absolute freedom during the course. It seems more like we got abandoned then.

For me, it is rather an irritating experience to have a boss, or a so called “friend” like that. I don’t mind to be friend if you are a boss, but please la, you know you are an employer then you should behave like an employer.

First, you act close with me, as if you know me long enough to ask about my private life, like it is my responsible to tell you all my stuff that I don’t even tell my good friend. I have to admit that I lose to you, that I never see a MALE who is so GEH POH to dig people’s personal things.

Second, you are discussing SEX topic with me, and keep saying how good you are in sex, as how you make your girl friends or sex partner or so to scream non-stop, to keep requesting or what-so-ever. THAT IS NONE OF MY BUSINESS!! And again, it is none of your business whether my boy friend is able to make me do the same or not. You are irritating me, instead of amazing me for your “NEVER FAIL TO MAKING ANY GIRL HIGH” statement. Remember what I said, your success until now is because you have yet to meet the tough one. And no, I’m not hinting you that you will not able to handle me, and I will not, for sure. PLEASE EQUIP YOUR ROOM WITH COMPLETE SURROUNDING OF MIRRORS. If you find problem in getting the cheap ones, I don’t mind to introduce my ex’s nephew to you.

Third, you are good in many things, indeed, for multi-hobbies, a boss of an expanding company. However, I was not amazed by your “I’ve tried all types of girls”. What you think a girl is? Your position as a amateur photographer is giving you advantage to enjoy this kind of privilege, as I know most of the popular ones has gone through some processes in order to climb up to the rank. But what makes you think that telling this kind of statement will give a good impression to the others? Or you are trying to irritate me PURPOSELY? FYI, this is considered as a kind of sex-harassment, and I’m considering on reporting this to the faculty.

Fourth, I’m not sure whether it is, or not. You are stingy. Not paying girls for sleeping with you? This may sound good, for you are not treating girls as sex-toys. For me, I feel like you are not willing to spent money to have such satisfaction, means you are having the need, but you don’t want to spend money, so you will go after “ngam feel” girls or one-night-stand for free sex, instead of going for prostitutes that need you to pay.

Fifth, if you are not paying trainees, please say so in the beginning. Don’t make it so ambiguous with “pay upon performances”, and keep asking me to work hard to fight for the pay, when you are sure that you are not going to pay anyone in the first stage. And on behalf of the others, WHAT KIND OF PERFORMANCE YOU ARE EXPECTING WHEN YOU GUYS ARE NOT ASSIGNING ANY TASK TO THEM? WTFish… =_=||| We got nothing to say because we are trainee, still learning, got not qualification to request for salary or allowance or any money, after all, it is not so hard to make it clear in the beginning, isn’t it? Bear in mind that there is no free lunch underneath the sky, if you want any, GO UP THERE!

I have to admit that you are really a special person, which you are the first I ever met, as a MALE with complete GEHPOH-ness, ultra-don’t –want-face, sissy, etc.. To be honest, I don’t see much good thing in you. You might blame me for unable to see the good in you, or you may also sue me for defamation, but I did keep the y!m chat history in my pc and lying to the public is just not my style.

GO BUG THE OTHERS. Even if I am “naughty” or whatever you mentioned previously, don’t disturb me. If you want excitement or challenge, go find the others. I’m just not your type.

Dear ITP-mates,

If you happened to see my blog, and this post, please be clarified that, I feel disgusted on the person that you guys said “very close to me”. It is coincidentally that I got disturb, and I don’t know why I’m the only one he approached, when I did tell him to talk to you guys as well. Frankly speaking, I did felt bother when you guys say like I got something with him. NO! I do not and I will never do, with someone whom I felt irritating. Please take notes =)

If there is a chance to work together again, I hope we could discuss and make decision together, rather than leaving me to face the boss alone. His “反正你们都没有做到什么东西” had really pissing off. FTW!! It is nice to have gone through ITP with you people, and thanks for the farewell dinner invitation, though I felt like I got isolated for most of the time, as my earphone is always on. haha~

And finally, apologies for everything I did wrong, or anything that makes you pals felt uneasy. Luv you guys~ friends 4eva ya~~ ^_^

Best-est regards,
Waiwai aka eta ♥

ITP - da Beginning

2008-11-09T09:26:00.004+08:00

It’s been a week since my Industrial Training Program (ITP) has started. Well, to be standard, the 1^st day should be on 28^th of October. Erm, we got ffk-ed by the employer on the 1^st day, after we reached there. He was in sg during that time, and asking us to come on Friday. Sial~ I’d been rushing to incubator (the training location).. =_=|||| Norh, the stupiak car of don’t-know-who parked his car in front of my house and block my way. Darn~

Uhhhzz, better still. More time for me to slack about. Haha~ They were gossiping about the employer, doubting a ffk-er’s ability to manage the company, and so on. Lmao~ I was just sit there quietly and listen to what they said. I can’t even know how to see a person who is close to me, moreover someone I didn’t even met. And for someone who manage to establish and maintain a company for some years, I do believe that he got some ability or talent or whatever that bring him to the current level. Errr, we can just wait and see.

Then the night before Friday, I got Ken’s call that our training was further postponed to coming Monday. Again .. =_=||

There come Monday, and yes, we did start our 1^st day, and went off one and a half hour later. It was just some brief introduction on some background, something we need to learn, and passed a file to us to learn on our own. That’s our 1^st day.

The days after that were just sit, study, chatting and waiting to go off. I’m glad that the boss was not the LC type as I thought. He buzzed and chatted to me on Thursday night, when I saw he added me on my ym. He was totally..swt.. keep making me banging the wall.. *ouch and pain.. T_T* and he is terrible as in he is having many hobbies at the same time. Amateur photographer, song composing, and OMG! COOKING! This is rare among males sia, well, at least among those I know. He kept mentioning “Jamie” throughout the whole conversation. Lolx~ those who don’t know might thinks that he is GHEY.. lmao~ who knows?

I chatted to another guy, err, is also considered one of the bosses, and there I found out another funny guy. I wonder whether he is as bian-tai as he friend did to have so many hobbies, and he said no. Instead, he make a confession that he knows nothing but he got a big bunch if girlfriends.. ( O.o Really? Awesome huh? ) and then we been crapping all around. He is the 1^st, and the one and only person who called me as “宅女”, meaning the girl who hide in home and never go out, forever. Haha, thanks uh~ for the complimentary.. xP

Anyway, I’m having fun chatting with them, as friends. They were cute and funny, as from what I encounter now, and there’s a lot about them for me to find out. Hope it would not be disappointing. By the way, it’s strange to have chatted in ym as my default chatting machine was the msn, with my favorite emoticons. Too bad I can’t get them added to my msn list, they are still my bosses after all. Guess I will get them in after 3 months, when they are no longer my bosses. Haha~ And I will FLOOD THEM WITH EMOTICONs, for sure. Ngek ngek~~ *evil grinnn*

So that’s much for my 1^st week of ITP. Hoping that I will be able to gone through it smoothly, and get them to pay me the allowance/salary/wages/ whatever as long as it is money. LMSAONO~~~

Wib lurve,

*Eta* ^_^

Grandmother stories •1•

2008-11-05T23:12:00.006+08:00

I’m back. Been in low tide in the past few weeks and tends to get active in my Chinese blog until my joyxy hubby stops me and drag me back to here. Thanks dear, for being care to me for so long. Glad to have to by my side, although you have stopped playing the game. Luv ya~ =)

*FYI, my Chinese blog is semi-open, and will put only sad thing inside. Forgive me for not sharing with you guyz.. =x

Recalling things that happened in the past few weeks, some of them are quite irritating and annoying. Erm, there was a guild fight in the joyxy, between my guild and another one. Some stupiak people bring it up when I was making my effort to avoid it. It was so annoying to see that fella acting smart, doing all the stupid thing and yet pretend to be the innocent one. He was so disgusting. Moreover, he is a guy who is using a female character, and named it as iloveu.. swt =_=|| not lovely at all sia. Heng I got it settle by posting a thread in the forum, and thanks to all brother and sisters in the guild who for willing to listen to me.

Just hate to see those stupiak people to ACT SMARt.. Keep skin larh~

Then erm, yar, the weekend before the guild fight was the guild gathering in KL time square, which we have had our karaoke singing session, and gosh, they were so good in singing sia~ And I was so surprise for my singing performance on that day, for being able to singing most of the song in the right pitch. LMAO~ proud of myself sia~ hahaZ~ sorrie pal for being perasan here.. hehez~~

And we have had our dinner together after that, spent almost 3-4 hours for a meal, discuss about the strategies, the skills, the bugs, all about the games.. my darn pro guild members huh~ lolx..

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Had my FYP presentation on 10 September, it was a terrible experience thou, which I have to rush my MATLAB code, presentation slides, and report in 2 weeks time. Special thanks to kitty for helping me out in making the slides presentable.. hehe~ too bad that I’m a noob in arts.. xP

Wondering my presentation session is having more seniors, as for the others, there were one supervisor and one moderator involved, but for my case, I got another extra person sitting there, listen and questioning about my title. The worst part would be that I got bombarded by my supervisor with a series of tough question, which I was only able to get through by bluffing. There goes the pro-ness of my BLUFFalogy.. Epps~

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For the gaming part, i played less as I was busy for my studies thingy. Joyxy had released the maximum level to 81 and yet I was still at far behind than the others, and now is only 51 while there is already some people reached the end point. I shall salute those bian tai-s for chiong-ing so fast. However, I’m fine for lagging behind as there is no clue on the next patch, and sort of pitying those max-ed level people who got nothing to do after maximized their level. Even it’s kindda lonely to be left out in most of the party-ing part. Would be chiong-ing the level soon bah, though I wish not to be categorized under the “kia-su” group. X_x

Houhou stopped playing joyxy, and I’d became a loner sia.. I joked to him that day, asking him whether will him still resume to play, or else I go get a new hubby. Guess what he said? He asked me to “go ahead”.. Arhhhh~~~ sad sia, he dumped me for gunbound. *sob sob*

Dear you really don’t want me le arh?? T____T

As for audi, I got coupled up with kitty’s character in audiSEA, and unfortunately, he did passed my level 19 license and I’m now level 20, another level to march into amateur. Sad sia, I can’t tell people that I did ALL of my license by MY OWN liao.. I DON’T WANNA BE A HIGH LEVEL NOOB!!! Rather to stay in low level if I can’t achieve the skill that a level 20 should be, than being called as a noob in game. That’s a SHAME sia.. haiz, must train my skill le, but then I need to train my joyxy character also.. woots~ getting busy, haha~

And I got brought into Taiwan version audi by kitty, and became a stiffy again. Lolx, not meant to be a fake noob, by the way, Imma really a noob in game. xP It has got more song than SEA version, including those removed from SEA version. As for the player there, there is not much different from audiSEA. Still a big bunch of vulgar-words-lovers, bunch of brainless kia-su kiddos, but slightly LC-er than SEA players, barely see players having massive chat in the lobby. Also, none of them can communicate in English, as from what I’ve seen so far. It’s not that I can’t type in Chinese but it’s a lot more work and tedious to do so, and I’m lazy sia.. lollx~ xP

The spamming at their place is slightly pro-er, which were filled with lots of vulgar and harsh words, as if it ok to do it there. Same to the use of hacks, many rooms in a channel putting the title telling people they were using hack, inviting people to join. It was simply AWESOME! As in it is legal to use hack over there and there will be no penalty imposed on them. Thumbs up for the GMs over there. =x

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Forums.. err, I’m getting more and more lazy to spam, most of the time was acting the role as a passer-by, especially in ppf. So far the forums I like the most are gamuser and 8i, people there and open and friendly, although members are not that active as they used to be. As for shoshot.net, it’s filled with a bunch of kiddos which wasn’t able to accept new thingy, or I should say, anything that is “alien-like” to them, and the thing that irritated me the most would be the ACT-SMART moderator. If not mistaken, he is a 30-year-old middle-aged guy, who always act matured in front of the bunch of kids, while the way he think might be right in some way, but can’t express them in a way it should be. As per what I interpreted, he is trying to build up an image that he is unique, and he knew everything, so called “god-like”. LMAO, the ironic part was, the kiddos see him as idol, treated him as an example to learn from. GOOD LUCK TO THE KIDS..

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Still a lot more to go above my life, and yet lazy to tell, or better to say, not to make the post into a very long winded post, else someone will starts complaining me again. So, it would be better to partition it into many part. So, nanny story part 1 ends here..

Muax all~~

•Eta•

MIA-ed…….

2008-08-15T23:21:00.006+08:00

So, this is it : I MIA-ED AGAIN.. Sorry pals.

Well, the same thing – many things happened, and I am still alive. How lucky I am~ LMSAO~

It is a tough job to see me in audi nowadays as I have been semi-quitted and turned to play another game. I was playing a Chinese game called “joyxy”, 快乐西游 in Chinese. Not much the main difference between that and maple was, of cause, the character and story lines, and also the skills. Show you guys a screenie here, those who interested, got download and start playing. My ign was “恶搞de烟烟”, add me when you’re in it. And here’s the official website : http://joyxy.8i.net.my/index.htm

Then I found my game couple there. To be strict, he is not my 1^st in game couple, however, he is the only one whom I was able to maintain the longest relationship ever, unlike in audi, got ditched til I became numb. =_=||| If I would like to describe him, let’s think, he is a nice guy, cute, and creative. A pro surprise maker, make me a bunch of pictures in a short time; a joker, who always comes out with random and funny phrases in a sudden, and no one will ever to expect his appearance. I guess I would have go after him, if I am still available, and I am not too old for him. Too bad, it was the other way round. WASTED. Lolx~

Read his blog, and yea, as funny as he usually is. And also his friends bloggie, especially his roomie, then I realized that he and his whole bunch of friend has got the same style. Wonder if the lecturer in his Uni taught them the format to write blogs. 1^st, they updated their blog very frequently. Not sure it’s because of the blog is still new, or they are really so into blog writing. Anyway, it is a good habit after all, isn’t it? Then the 2^nd, they use to make a long line after finishing a story, as in to make a clear cut to tell us that “hey, it was another story already”. Well, again, it is nothing bad. In fact, the lines make the blog looks tidy. But, it rises up my curiosity that how come ALL of them are using the same style?? Interesting huh? @@”

Shall I do the same way too?? LMAO~

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( And yup, I did it… =3 )

I got my FYP title in the beginning of the semester. “Lattice-Based Watermarking Scheme”, sound interesting to me, and happy when I first get the title. Then I felt regretted for having such a difficult question, with no source code, limited reference, as this is quite new in engineering field. Arghh, furthermore, I did nothing thru out the past 10 weeks and it was about to reach the date line which I will need to present my work piece, and yet, I’m still slacking in games, chatting in msn, doing all crap stuffs. =_=||| What a pathetic me.. May be I should follow dear water’s trace, stop playing and start doing my task.

HOW I WISH I CAN.. *sigh*

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( Here I doing it again… lolx)

Asiasoft is organizing a game fest for Malaysian. Pity (is it the word? (“Padan muka” sounds better sia.. =x and no, i do not hate Asiasoft) Asiasoft got poor response for the audi “Clubber of the Year” event. It was initially requiring the participants to pay some fees upon registration, qualifier round in few different places, and will be having a grand final for champions in respective region in KL, to compete for national level. After sometimes, the system changed. Registration fees are no longer needed, and the high level the participant can go was the regional champion. I guess it was something expected, as in, WTFish? Holding a grand final for such a big company, in a cc ?? @@” Even cib’s sdo-x tournament is not as cheap as that, though the grand final for xdo (aka sdo-x) is really sux..

Erm, brief description for cib’s sdo-x finals. It started off late, ended super duper late (almost 11pm), bad event flow, bad organization, and the crucial point was, THEY HAS NO ABSOLUTE RIGHT TO MAKE A DECISION! =_=||| The event drag til so late was mainly due to the pc problem, always got dc-ed from the server, spent an unbearable amount of time to fix the things up, EACH TIME. There was once when the organizer announced to cancel the semi-final matches, and it was forced to bring back as they got complains from the players. I doubt that whether who is the organizer? The player, or themselves? As for what I knew, they will be a term which player will have to follow ALL decision made by the organizing company, regardless of what players complained. Something like “decision made by organizing committee are FINAL”, or “ keputusan pihak penganjur adalah MUKTAMAD”.. LMAO, I remembering it in malay better sia. Conclusion, it’s tiring and disappointing.

Back to the audi event. I am going but not participating. And the main thing I concern was, kaykay is taking part. This is what she said in ppf, making me don’t feel like go and watch the game playing. what is the point to go and not having fun? Guess that it would be no fun at all to see the irritating liar to appear in front of me. It’s really steam-cutting sia…

Iif you were to ask why, please refer to my previous post in July. And yes,I HAVE NOT GOT OVER HER YET. Do not ask me why, I hope to get her vanished from my brain a.s.a.p. too. Forgive me for not able to shoo her off so soon, I was just, too sad for the thing she did to me. Haiz…

Dear audi dearies, shall I go, or not to go?

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(Hehes…. Drawing line, for the 3^rd time.. wakaka~ I’m so good in adapting new skills.. ROFL~)

Waaaa, going after a long post again. Sorry pals for tirig your eyes again. Here I stop and don’t miss me ya~ lolololllx

STILL LUV YA GUYZ, lots lot~

Eta~ ^_^

Good bye my “DEAR”

2008-07-13T08:26:00.014+08:00

Hmm… It’s been long, and many things happened during these days, and part of them is the bad one. I guess this would be my first time to put the not-so-happy thing in my blog.

Still remember the girl which I mentioned very frequently in my previous blog? My audi friend and my real life best pal for the past half year. The one I called her “dear” always. This will be the last time I talk about her, because she and I are no longer friends. The reason? She lied to me, a very big lie.

Knew her in one midnight last year in an audi chat room, been so match in topic and hence we became friends, eventually met during this year’s Chinese new year, then turn into real life friend. We’ve been to so many occasions together, having fun, with lots of laughter. I treated her like my real sister, and I loved her.

I was told by her that she is 21 since the day I know her. The topic we’ve discussed, it’s all about adults. Nightlife, driving, the party WE have voted for the Malaysia’s general elections, Lim Kok Wing- the private university college she’s in, college life in Australia, everything. And I doubt nothing, because everything she said does make sense to me.

Then there comes a day which I felt bored and feel like going out for a drink, and one of my friends suggested me to ask her along, and thus I called her number. Her aunt answered the phone, start blaming me for bring her out until very late, and telling me that her result been deproved greatly, and ASKING ME WHETHER I KNOW SHE WILL BE SITTING FOR SPM THIS YEAR. (for your information, SPM is a government exam for Malaysian secondary 5 student, equivalent to O-level in Singapore) This question gave me a kns-ly big damn shock. So I answered “I thought she is 21 this year?” Then the reply to me was “she told you she’s 21? She has been lying a lot to me recently”

I do not take the words completely in the beginning as I thought it might be her aunt lying so that I will find her less. IT IS EITHER SHE OR HER AUNT IS LYING TO ME. I referred to her friendster profile again, and then only I realized it is still 18. I ignored the age page previously as I was told that was not her account actually, and she is going edit it in some time (when I first added her). Yes, I have no choice but to admit that I AM STUPID.

I saw her online in msn for once, nudged her and said “hey” to her, hoping that I will get a reasonable explanation from her. There was no reply from her. Fine. She always not replying when she’s audi-ing. Then I realized SHE REMOVED ME FROM HER BUDDY LIST IN AUDI. And this is the truth she gave me eventually. The reply was so obvious, isn’t it? So I left her a last message in her guild blog, and stopped contacting her, as what she requested for. I stopped seeing her online in msn, I been blocked by her I guess? And FYI, she gives no explanation to me until the moment I’m typing this, and this happened around a month ago. (now I wonder why am I keep giving her chance to save our relationship..) And this is the decision I have to make in the end :: she and I = FULL STOP.

I keep watching for what she did recently, as I still can’t get over her yet. And now she is trying to organize a large scale competition for Malaysian audi-ers. Refer to this link, a forum thread which she admitted she’s sitting for SPM this year (means she’s 17):

http://forums.playpark.net/showthread.php?t=436410

She is the thread setter, and the organizer. I will still follow up, will attend but will not participate in the competition, regardless of my noobness in playing audi games, as I have lost confidence towards the organizer, who has been BAD IN REPUTATION from what I’ve seen. If you are going, feel free to join. I WILL NOT STOP YOU FROM WINNING THE ATTRACTING, VERY BIG PRIZE. Do not get disturbed for what I said here, if you think I’m a malicious defamator.

A friend of mine was trying to persuade me that this is not completely her fault in this incident. Oh well, IT IS MY FAULT to TRUST IN HER, TREAT HER GOOD. Then who should I blame? Myself? Oh yea, ME, I and MYSELF.

I’m not sure I am doing the right thing to post this out in my blog, which seems that I was trying to spoil her name. But if you are close enough to me, and know me well, then you should very well that I’m NOT that kind of person who simply say anything to defame someone, this is just not my style.

And if any friend of her happened to be here and read this, or pass by her, and going to tell her about this, PLEASE DO NOT DO SO. I WISH NOT to have any relation with her anymore, neither be in contact as friend, nor enemy.I WANT PEACE! And if you happened to be her supporter, and planed to fight against me for her, because SHE’S TRUST WORTHY, then go ahead, but I will not entertain you for sure. Soon you will know whether I’m the one who making the defamation here, or not.

For those audi-er who wish to know her ign, she’s –babyDEE—now (something like that), previously known as –NkZ-Sheenn. Kaykay is how I used to called her usually.

This is just a piece of advice. If you find me annoying, irritating, just refer to the previous paragraph, ignore me, or just CLOSE THIS PAGE. Thank you for your kind co-operations. =) Do not blame me for not warning you if she does the same to you.

Also, here to declare that,

ANYTHING SHE DOES IN THE FUTURE HAS GOT NOTHING TO DO WITH ME.

I loveD you, for once, and you ruined it.

Good bye, my “dear”

GLoomy June..

2008-06-11T18:21:00.008+08:00

This is a gloomy season where everyone seems down, and bothered by unwanted problem which do not turn out in the way they are expected to be.

The time I been in audi was now much lesser than ever, not more than 5 hours in a week I guess. No friends, got stuck in level 19 license – arghh~ I’m such a noob! Spend most of my time slacking in the forum I mentioned previously. Guess I won’t hard selling it anymore. I know I do not have such a big influence to make people come join or drag people to come or what. Anyway, dear Leost, glad you’re here and gave me a tag there, though I know you will not be an active one. Thanks~ =)

Then I got stuck in some emotional issues. Some illusion appeared in my mind that makes me feel so suffer and been struggling to make the decision, though I wish to drag it until I can see it more clearly. I know I would be able to put these to the end, however, the feeling towards some facts that I realized since long time ago is now stronger.
Sigh~ another choice to be made.

Compared to others, my problem is obviously less significant to those they are facing.

The one I worry the most was one of my audi dear, char char.
I read her blog, it do not seems she is right, and yet I do not know what happen to her. There are already 2 emo post in her blog. According to my understanding, she feels that she was unwanted by the others, and no one realizes her existence. Hope that this is my wrong guess.

Dear Char,
You are always my beloved dear. No matter what happened, though I’m 5 hours away from you, I’m always here. Feel free to talk to me whenever you needed, remember, YOU ARE MY DEAR~ I miss you and will always love you, and I never wish to see you in sad mood.

The second one, was someone I knew recently. He setup a company, and now facing many problem, not only externally, but also internally from his staff. Well, it is always troublesome to ask someone who is close to you to work for you, where you can’t be strict, can’t be frank and whatever you do you have to consider about how they would feel.

I was sitting there in mamak stall with him, listening to his complaints and whines and yet can do nothing to help him out. Sorry pal, it was beyond my ability and all I able to do was just listen, and listen, and listen. And may be, joke a little to cheer you up?
Just be strong and stay cheer~ =)
Every successful businessman went through these also.
It would be better if you take it as a learning process instead of something that makes you regret, isn’t it?

I’ll always be the woman behind the “successful” man~
LMSAO~ =x
cheerZ and I luv ya~

Lastly, dear Jackie, sorry for inverting our position which now you have become the one who listening to my whines. And thanks for being with the problematic me all the time. Glad to have you by my side. Same to dearie kaykay.
Luv ya all~ muax muax~

I would still hide in the gamuser forum and the new game joyxy, something similar to maple, but with different story and characters. So if you are missing me, look for 你抽的烟 in the forum, that’s my user ID in the forum.

Will try my best to update my blog more often. =)

Fun in Forum~

2008-05-26T17:22:00.006+08:00

Been busy over the months and now it’s finally over. Yep, ALL over for academic stuffs and I got the authority to slack as much as I wanted to. LMAO~

Well, I was actually not that busy after April since all assignment due dates have passed, just that I had been slacking too much until I lack of time to get prepared for my final exam, and thus all my subjects gg-ly done.

Not sure that whether did I tell you guys that I’ve been indulged in foruming recently?
I used to join some forum previously, but just of the type that open, read and go.
But now was totally different.

The 1st forum I joined long after the last forum I registered was the nitestarz which one of my friend was the admin, and I been spamming a lot there, around 2k post in less than a month. Then I stopped when one of the moderators starts locking her thread by permission and spammed among themselves. I wasn’t sure about the reason she lock her thread, whether because it’s private, or she just don’t want me to have the chance to spam. Well, whatever it is. I’M OUT and the forum was so dead now. Hope I wasn’t take it wrongly that it has been so quite after I gone.. lolx… I so perasan sia.. XP

Then I was dragged into another forum by cha xiu, he invited me through sms sia.. so I join since he was so sincere.. sms wor~~~ hahaz..
The next thing I found out was, I got cheated by him. Sadded sia..

Not sure whether I can call it as “cheat”. The story was, he told me that it’s a place for the gamers to gather, and players from many games were there, including audiSEA. So I just join and then only I realized, there’s NO ONE in audi section. DOTz…. Then the next thing I do was, slack and crapping around. It was very fun though, as the discussion in the forum was very funny, and interesting, especially the discussions between the gamers in trying out the new games. Indeed, it was the talks there the drag me into to webgame called “instant noodle san guo”. Anyways, it is a nice game. Feel free to try it out~ ^^

Oh ya, forgot to mention the new forum I’m in. It’s Gamuser, simply go to www.gamuser.com or just click the link in my links column and get your ass in.. LMAO~ sorry, kindda indulged in rudeness recently. My dear friend are not that SMALL GAS for disliking me over this small matter right? Lolx.. XP

You might think I’m hard selling the forum, and indeed I am. =x It was FREAKING EMPTY for the audi section and I need to put in some effort to drag some spammer to help me FLOOD the audi section. So, hey my dearest audi pals, do me the favour please?
COME AND FLOOD the audi section. Feel free to open thread and post. So bored of being surrounded by all the XDO/SDO-ers. Lets try to make them surrounded by us.. Wakaka~~~ =3

You will know which one is me when you start browsing the forum. I’ll be easily spotted by you when you get into the audi section caused I’m almost the only person there, and most of the threads are started by me. Pity lonely Eta in the forum.

So, can I start expecting to see some one here to appear there also??
Do come uh~ I promise to never let anyone of you got bullied in the forum. Anyway, people there are friendly, and fun-ly. So, nothing to worry about. ^_^

And my update ends here. Will try to do more updates soon. ^_^

Lots of luvs~ x33

The Wedding

2008-04-29T12:09:00.005+08:00

Hmmm… Here it is, the blog dedication that I owe kaykay for, a month?

There goes the story. Let say Sheenn have had a successful wedding that lead to a successful divorce (kindly refer to –NkZ-’s guild’s blog’s chatter box… phew~ so many ’s.. XP). Then she was so lucky and happy to get together with Shindo in 20 minutes after that. (she was so laku, isn’t she??). End of the foreplays. =x

Some times after that, Sheenn asked me out to stay overnight in a cc ( dear Singaporean, cc = lan in your context ^^). Well, she never tells that she is going to get married until the moment she got into my car, and everything seems so rush that we are so rush to get to that place, to eat, and to get online before Shindo birthday reach. For your information, it was Shindo’s birthday on 23rd of March, and surprisingly, he was same age as me, and SLIGHTLY older than me.. LMSAO~

Then the things turn worse when she wasn’t able to login to the MOL website, and she kept trying (that’s the so called “the power of love”), cause without the MOL-point, there will be no A-cash and thus no wedding license (yea, I know what u thinking but shhhh~ =x)

Of course, the problem was eventually settled, else I wouldn’t be owing her a blog. Kkz, the whole wedding process took more than half an hour to complete. Don’t ask me why, the whole progress was warming up before hand, and that’s when Sheenn saw Shindo’s 1st bad word : fk.

The most time spent for her wedding was to wait all the relatives to come in, craps a while, and being anxious a while. The 1st attempt had started with all the “jyjy” and chats and eventually they failed.

Before the 2nd attempt starts, I told her not to bother about the chats and keep focus on the game. Then she got stressed up for the missings and also the spam chats (yea, I hate spammer too), and she start scolding, so do the bridegroom. (Wedding really makes people stressed huh~ =x) They failed the 2nd attempt.

Then there comes the break time. She went toilet and washed her face to refresh herself, but the smoke in the “provided smoking area” the makes her uncomfortable. Actually, it was also the 1st time I saw this kind of smoking area inside an AIR-CONDITIONED cc. The typical one would either be non-smoking, or smokes flying around the cc. It was totally different that the so called “smoking area” was transparent glass-bounded, with some sort of fan inside. Whatever, it is none of my business and it’s making me sick as well.

For the other party, Shindo went smoking and the wedding room became a chat room, reasonably. That was another long wait and I felt like I’m an idiot waiting for don’t know what. Yawnz~
The last attempt. As per my advice (advice sia… XP), Sheenn post a warning for them not to chat during the game. It was the total silent and that’s what surprised, never thought that they would be so co-operative (nah~ no offence.. ^^). And the noisy chat starts coming back when they got they last sync perfect done, and that’s when my important role came in. well, all the screen shot you saw here were all done by me. Hey kay, thank me for this~

Hehe.. here is the funniest part, just keep an eye on the chat for every screen shots. I would just provide the keywords: excited, scream, tears, speechless, 1st night…
And the brief description for Sheenn’s face expression was – white carrot – her smiles were as wide that a white carrot can be fitted in. Correct me if I was wrong.. =x

Little notes for all :: FYI, I got severe stm that some point might no be as accurate as what I used to think that time. So, do ignore it if I did put it in the wrong words. (my English sux….hehe~ XP )

Grats dear Sheenn for wedding, though the relationship is no longer the same today.

LUDD ~~~x33

Scarlett - 270408

2008-04-28T02:20:00.014+08:00

It’s near to the end of April, finally all university coursework done and I’m now temporary free from datelines. I’m BACK~~~~

Reviewing the past few weeks I’d been, there were 4 un-slept nights, which mid-term test and assignment due dates are in 4 consecutive days. My xdo didi called me “god” when I told him about this. Yea, now I realized how “GOD” I was. XP

Went clubbing to Scarlett last night. Sort of disappointed as it was not as what I expected be to, like what my bf described to me. Well, it’s true that in overall it is quite ok, I do like the music. However, it was not the so called “high class” occasion with “high quality chicks”, who wears elegantly, unlike the “lala-mui” in KL’s clubs. My description was, common. The way they dress was like normal people going to shop in mid valley or time square. It’s not bad, just simple and not “elegant” as what they said. It would have been over-described by him, again, I guess.

I wasn’t that enjoy especially when my bf pulled my away from a guy that he seem about to a little body contact with me during dance. Well, it is a normal if people do touch a little bit during dance. If he so worried that I was hugged by someone else, he might just as well hide me in his house, and never brings me out. It was apparently that he doesn’t trust me at all. Being regular clubber in the past, both we know how would be the basic thing to protect ourselves. Arghh… My night has just ruined by him, though the song played by the DJ was very nice after that incident. WTFish~ =_=

One of the girl, call her PY. Well, her attitude was not of my favorite ones. I would just cut the attitude problem off here, leaving it to another post. She flirts around, trying to seduce, yea, SEDUCE each and every guy nearby. EXPECTEDLY, she got drunk eventually and was in the cmi mode when we leaving the place. She got molested by a kiddo, 3 strange numbers in her phone this morning and there was a missing-memory which she totally can’t recall of. However, I do not feel pity on her, instead, I think she DESERVES IT.

Nah~ It’s not that I cold-blooded. It was just some expression for some BEACHES.

The kiddo mentioned previously got black-listed by the guys for his pervertive-ness. He worst thing he did was not only hug and molest, but also chase another guy away when the guy (his friend) was hug and playing with that girl, and take her for himself. And yep, the girl was the PY mentioned earlier. Don’t ask me for the number of guys hugged her last night, it would be the hardest riddle for me, as I got only 2 hands and 10 fingers for simple mathematics calculations.

Hmmm.. Enough of telling someone else’s bad. So sick to think about her…

As for myself, I end up updating my friendster profile after my bath early in the morning until 7am. Got some sleeps and got waken up by PY’s phone call to my bf. ( swt.. her again.. ), then wasn’t able to get back to sleep again. Then my stomach starts to twist, and had diarrhea for the whole day. Guess I was allergic to whiskeys, and had to get shifted to red wine or whatsoever.. I wonder my body still able to take any whiskey, may be the slightly more expensive ones, like blue label or cordon blue?? (lolx.. cant be cause cordon blue was so damn expensive).
I just can’t stand the taste, neither the smells. Haiz..

I would just stop here for this returning post. Would try my best to update as frequent as I could, and realizes all the blog dedications that I’d promised, especially Sheenn’s wedding with Shindo. That was like, N years ago and I still don’t know how to put it in the way it should. Forgot what I have planned earlier thou.

Super duper tired and have to sleep now. So, bye and please come back in short.

Took this this in car while bf sending PY up to her house.
Simply like the un-vividness..

*power of darkness*

Luv ya all~~~ ^^

BUSY APRIL..

2008-04-08T23:59:00.004+08:00

RWAR~
It is a busy month, which all my mid term test, assignment due dates are in this month, especially this week.. ( if u do not know, kindly refer to my study calendar on the right panel..I do feel it's mad..warrrrr~ i wan sleep~~~~~~)
Been sleeping less than 3 hours per day for the past 2 days.
Fortunately, i have YET to get involved in any car accident due to sleepiness during..

THANK GOD~

I'm now slacking half way during my study for tmr afternoon's midterm test, WTFish is the only term to be used to describe this. 12 hours for 2 chapters of 100++ pages of notes, excluding the tutorial to be done.. arggg, I"M DEAD, full stop.

Guess this would be the shortes post i'd ever got, thx to Money Making University.

Trying to list out some thing in plan but yet to have the time and mood to complete it...

1. Blog dedication to kaykay for her wedding, as promised.
2. Bloggie on my bday.
3. Bloggie on my chinese blog tht I wanted to write, so many things in my mind now.
4. Cleaning up my study room.
5.Friendster profile updates.
6.Reject all facebooks requests... =.=
5. SLEEP~
6. and PLAY~~~ XP

Going back to the stack of irritating notes le..
Jz trying to inform u guyz i wud be mia from my bloggie for some time.
Dun miss miee uh~~ =3

In case u're too free, try this question :: if Eta is dead, hw wud u be / react ??

Swt... si bian tiai.. =_=|||

2008-03-22T06:45:00.006+08:00

ARggghhhh~~~~ getting siao!!!! =.=

Wonder why there are so many bian tai people in the world, and wonder why I can meet so many in just a night. =.=

After my XDO dear went off, I played in audi for a while, then went to practice some songs in o2, and gain some experience for my character at the same time.

Then there was this fela whose IGN was “michale” pm-ed me. He asked for my msn, so I gave him, since it’s not the first time I met him in game.
Then he asked for my display picture, I showed him my old picture which I took it 2 years ago.
Then he asked for another display picture, emphasize the MORE SEXY ONE. I asked him back for his age, and he said 18, then I told him I was 23.
Then he asked me whether to have a game, I thought he wanted to jam, so I joked to him said “do u wanna bully me?”. out of surprise, he asked me whether to have an adult game… WTFish!!!!! of course, I rejected him. Heng he stopped pm-ing me after that.

He was lucky that I forgot to take the ss for the chats, and also wasn’t able to get Jackie into the game. Else I don’t know how badly he would be f**ked by my pro-scolder friend. (well, it’s a compliment for you, Jackie.. XP )

And, there gone my mood. I played a few song then logged off.

Realized an o2 friends had reach his targeted level 60, and I believed that he quitted o2 as he planned. Would like to dedicate my regards to him here, though I wouldn’t know whether he will see this, or not.

Dear Clearleaf,

Thanks for helping me from being bullied by trashing the bullies, though you called me noob also, and in fact I do really am, for not having the skill of a level 30 player. You made me locked myself up from playing with others, and tried to train myself back to the standard, though I still cant make it now.. XP sorry to disappoint you, but I will still keep trying. ^_^

All the best for your troublesome relationship with her, and please let go if necessary. Grabbing a heart with sharp edges will only hurt you. happy forever ya~~

Regards,
Waiwai601718.

Another siao people, whom I believed that I deleted him from my msn list, which now I recalled when I looking at the history, he was the friend of someone in my msn list, got my address through some msn conferences. The crucial thing was, he was MUCH BIAN TAI than the previous one, also a stalker. =_=

We chatted previously, trying to identify each other identity. It ended without any results. Then it was the second time, which happened not long ago from now. I was regretted that I accidentally unlocked my profile by allowing secondary friend to view my profile. He copied my picture, put on his msn display picture, saying me his new gf.
Swt.. =_=

These are bad, and why do it happen so frequently on me, which the time separation between the both was not more than half an hour. WTF~

Extremely moodless now… =_=

Hope the bian-taiS F**ked by the elephant!! !@$#%@%^$#$3...

XDO tournament :: 14/3/08 ~~~~~<33

2008-03-22T00:16:00.005+08:00

Hmm.. Been asked for updates by dear kaykay on XDO event that we went the last Friday..
I’ve been so directionless that I have got so many thing to do and yet I still slacking around without doing any of my job. Assignment due on 31st which need to study the whole Clark’s journal contains of 50 pages, and another 2 journals, then MATLAB simulation; optoelectronics mid term test on next Tuesday, blog updates, friend’s invitation for meet up.. blah blah.. I was just… lost.

Think will have to list down my job task schedule before I really died from stress.

Well just started off with my blog since i have no mood in studying.

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XDO tournament

Went to XDO tournament last Friday with Jackie’s gang of friends, and my beloved Kaykay who attended upon my invitation. For those audi-er who do not know what is XDO, it’s the short form for an online game called Super Dance Online-Xtreme, a Malaysia server based game.

It was a bad morning which not turn out as smooth as I planned. Heng, thing is back to normal, except I was still sleepy when I was out there. It was so rush. I picked-up Jackie at his house, then meet up with Kaykay in Sunway Pyramid. Before that I was so worried that they would buay song each other, as both are previously o2jammer, and Kaykay said Jackie was proud, and I stupiakly told Jackie about this. Anyway, they did talk and each found out that the other party was not as bad as how they thought. So, heng~~~~

Then it was the tournament thingy. It was not much surprise me and kaykay, me especially as I mentioned in previous post, it is meaningless for the noob like me to appreciate how to play the pro thing. All I can do there throughout the event was “wahhh”, “walao”, “siao~~” and many other exclamation words that express my shockness..

The climax of the event would be 2, the o2-kacao-er and the fc-er.

The event was going on, 5 player in a row in each battle, leaving the other row of pc unoccupied. There comes the itchy-handed Jackie and his o2 pals, start logging in o2jam application and play. Out of sudden, they increase the volume of the music, when the competition is still on. This attracted people to watch their game instead of the competition. Then the sot sot gang including us, start screaming for their pro-ness, the atmosphere gone so high that would made anyone who has no idea what’s going on to think that o2jam and xdo tournament was held at the same time.. swt.. Someone even made a song request.. swt swt + swt….

The only game that makes everyone there scream was the fc-er, who played the reverse note with full-combo (fc) in zi ji ya (lv 17, hardest song in XDO they said). Wooo~~~~ n1n1~~~ (oopps, audi language in xdo event sia)

Something extra::

We wasn’t able to play audi there cause the pc and line there was... speechlessly s**k. The application can be opened but prompted wrong version when we tried to log in. HS5 wise, yea, logged in but it was super duper LAGGG. No arrows when we started the games, even the song timer is not counting down, the words that we typed, it took like, erm, 1 minute? to appear.. Wtfish, no one will ever surprised if the cc went zap lap…

It was, simply, hopeless..

We logged in in another pc after the dinner break. We saw someone is playing HS5 then we were so excited to sit beside her. (2 stupiak evil woman… =3 ) Not long later, the girl stopped playing, and I wonder why. Must be that stupiak Kaykay who scared her from playing beside her (cause Kaykay was the one who sitting beside her. Kaykay, you bad bullie~~)

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After tournament

We went off before the event ended. Kaykay was influenced by me to not to go to her class, then end up audi-ing in Jackie’s cc. It was totally LOL throughout the night. Firstly the normal beat up and she taught me the way to handle 3254’s waves, and I failed as we were totally different style of playing. =3

Too much to illustrate for the our audi nite, I think I’m better to put it in point form ::

1. ** The whole cc is filled by our music, as we both turn the speaker loud (2 speakers) when there is no lag in music.

2. **It was the bad words night, which both of us (2 girls) use harsh and bad words the whole night, and she keep describing the different type of kukubird..
For example :: _l_ , _\\_, _()_, _//_ etc.. swt… she was just so pro in such things… =3

3. **The room title.. We made the room with funny title, the classic 1 was “diu hai day”.. =3

4. **2 siao zha bor, who chatted in audi though we both were just sitting next to each other. And the siao zha bor burst out laughing loudly all in the sudden (it’s is very loud that most people can hear, when the cc is almost full house)

Swt the 2 siao zha bor… =.=

We went home at 1am. Heng she didn’t get f**k by family, so do I, but I was so amazed of her guts to tell the truth. n1 dear~~ XP

Urrghhh, this post was s**cky, deproved in quality. I just don’t know how to put it as how I thought previously, as it was a week ago. Nah~ just let it be in this way, will edit it when I was free.

Memoirs of CNY 2008 :: 2/2

2008-02-28T12:15:00.013+08:00

***7. Audi couple and leveling

Did my level 18 license recently, used up around 20k dens. Lolx.. I’d become more and more noob.. =3

Coupled up twice, got ditched for once for unknown reason. *swt*
The recent audi couple was –xAhXiux3, a clubbing lover (in real), hongster and also a pro mia-er. Dear chaR cHaR says wanted to meet him one day, but I wasn’t so sure about that as i seldom see him in audi, not even on msn..

Break? Nah~bored of being asked by people why don’t get a couple. Plus I was not those people who anyhow ditching people before they talked to the other party, for no reason. So, dear aiai, fast fast come back ya~ X3

And SPECIAL THANKS to melleezz aka Melody, a sweet chio bu who’ve been trying so hard looking for couple for me in that midnight, really appreciate it. The reason I can’t get 1 was simple :: no 1 wants a noob old woman.. lolx~~ this was no only on audi, but to all games that I’m playing.

Single wan sui~~ (!?)

***8. XDO

Met a weird guy called Terry in XDO. He was friendly in the beginning, started off with normal greetings. Then asking for msn and friendster, requested for viewing my picture before he got my approve for friendster. ##I refused at first then agreed when he requested repeatedly, and that was the time accidentally let dHz0dHz0 saw my ugly face.. =3

## Short notes :: lolx.. I locked my profile, wanna see it? Add me. But I have no habit of adding unknown people, got influenced by my ex. So let me know you before you add me.. =3 LC hor? Another weird habit.. keke XP

He then asked for hp number and I insisted not to give as we was 1st met. Then he stopped talking to me, and replied that he dislike LC girl. What The Fish! LC? I don’t really know what was in his mind. This was the 1st time I saw such realistic and totally retarded people in half year of my gaming life.

I don’t really encourage nor support bullying matters in games. However, this would be the exemption. Any XDO-er who see this guy, feel free to trash him, I’ll be giving 100% moral support~ Thx~~ =p

Dear Terry :: F**k YOU!! Eee, no, YOU F**K BY AN ELEPHANT!!!!!! Go ask all other people who played with me before whether I’m the LC person that you mentioned!!

Dear others :: Sorry if I did bother you before. Please communicate with me, I do think that I’m not a LC person. ^^

***9. Jackie

Met him in XDO at the same day I met that stupiak bastard. Purposely go disturb him in the room after all the “f>cpl”## megas. =x

##f>cpl :: find couple, audi tradition that it was the fastest way to get a couple. Can be seasily seen by looking at the room title, normally playing club or couple mode.

Well, I’m not sure why was it so, but he did told me a lot about him and his bgr problems, a craps, though he insisted he was a quiet person who always remain silence and looking at people’s chat in the game rooms. Thanks for believe in me~~ ^^

Hmmm.. Descriptions.. Well, he is a o2 super pro, another lv.100 o2jammer I met after ah yik. The funny thing was, I met him in XDO instead of o2jam. Lolx~
However, I didn’t really understand most of the o2jam thingy that he mentioned to me. Of course, how do you expect a pro-noob to understand what a siao-pro says? His topic was on lv30++ songs while the maximum level that I can play was lv15---... ==

This pro make me a very interesting offer that he would provide protection to me against o2 bullies. X3 hmm, i don’t encourage the act of bullies in games, as mentioned previously. Anyways, thanks for the offer and I’m so touched~~ but hor,I HAVE NO MONEY TO PAY YOU AS THE PROTECTION FEES. Deal? Hehe.. XP

Physical wise, he is a chubby boy.. (hmm, 19-year-old boy is consider boy or guy? Jackie, you choose? ) As what he always emphasize on, he is fat and not leng zai. Well, I think I can tell that, a big bunch of males among the audi populations are not leng zai, and yet, some have more severe condition than he is. Keke.. If you needed some references, feel free to visit my friendster, provided you are in my friend list.. hehe.. Ooppss, ignore this if you are out of the audi population that I have just mentioned.. * See no evil~~ * lalala~~~

And the greatest thing I found in him was, we are both trance lover. Muahaha~ there come my music suppliers.. Been stealing a lot music from him sia..=3

And there’s an announcement for all my dear dear dear audi friends, papas, korkors, didid, meimeis… etc. I have successfully made the o2-pro to become an audi-nub (the power of beat up.. muahaha~ XP ), so please help to take care or look after him if you happened to see similar IGN with 5 digit numbers there ya. I felt my responsible to keep him away from bullies as I was the one who dragged him in.. hehe~ XP

Eepps.. Forgot to take picture with him , nothing to show sia.. Never mind, go tag his link~ he always complaint his blog was so cold..

I guess this is too long, and I’ve got complaint from beloved blo0dDaNceR didi for my very long winded post. Well, this suit my image of an audi old woman, isn’t it? rofl~~~

Thanks everybody for being my friends.. I’m glad and thankful to have you guys by my sides.. with lots of loves~ x33

Memoirs of CNY 2008 :: 1/2

2008-02-28T11:58:00.005+08:00

Well, looking at the title you knew what am I going to write. Yea, you’re smart, but no prize for you for being smart.. nah nah nah~~ =p

***1. Sing K

2 sing k sessions in less than 24 hours. However, I was not really enjoying both.

1 was with Xiong’s friends which Hui Min and I don’t know, and was told that they were unable to take jokes. we were unable to play or chat crazily. That’s what we called “cut steam”. ==

Another was with my primary schoolmates. Most of those attended were long lost friends who been mia## for past N years. So the atmosphere was like, unable to get it heated up. So in a simple word, bored.

## mia :: missing in action, audi language. =x

***2. Food

Well, this was the best part of this year’s CNY. We went back to my mom’s side, and the lunch was so pretty and nice to be eaten. The “yu sang” was special as it contains not only the normal ingredient bought from the market, but also some extra ingredient added in by my cousins. Yummeh~~

***3. Greeting SMS

Hmm, I wasn’t sure why am I bothering this, but it’s been a habit for me to compare the quantities of seasonal sms greetings we received. I got 46 for CNY greetings SMSes, a very little for Valentines’ Day and Chap Goh Mei. However, I’m still glad that there were still many friends noticed about my existence. Thanks pals~~ <33>

***4. Lonely Valentines’

*one WãÌwáî -- lonely valentines... anyone free? >_<

This was my msn message for the past few 2 months. Yea, I was home alone between CNY day 5 to day 8, been slim down drastically as I couldn’t find any companion to have my dinner. I hate to eat alone in public. I just hate the feeling to be seen as a loner. What a weird habit!

my 2008 valentines was nothing special. A normal meal at the food court, then stay home playing online games. same applies to Chap Goh Mei, the Chinese Valentines’ . No gift, no surprise, nothing. How pathetic! Nah~ just forget it.. >_< ***5. Returns of –FreeDoM-ers

I met them when I was about to change my IGN. Ark says that they were back and will remain active from now on when I asked. I’m not sure how true it is, as I’d been waited for so long. I’m happy but I have not put in too much expectations. Just postpone my plans, sit back and observe how the progress was.

Well, the latest effort was a guild blog was made. Feel free to pay a visit, get the link from the whole bunch of link over the right column of my blog~ ^^

Remember to tag ya~ ^^

***6. --NkZ-ahDOT

Met her on 11 Feb. I skipped my classes as most of the class were canceled, remaining some classes by super duper boring lecturer. We met in Mid-Valley, both were very late from the time we promised. It was then a whole big bunch of chat and craps between 2 8 po zai.. haha.. sakai~ her previous favorite term which used very frequently in audi.

She’s pro in audi, especially beat up. Go try her out if you refused to believe in what I said. ^^

My First Blanked-answer-sheet

2008-02-22T13:10:00.009+08:00

It was funny. >_<

I was in the lecture hall, attending the EHM3066 subject called “Engineer and Society”. Many, hmmm, not many, I believe that it was “all” of us wondering what would be the purpose for having such stupiak subject.

If a research was to be carried out for this subject, I think the hypothesis would be “The purpose to introduce the subject was to produce student with what what good ethics… blah blah blah..”, then the conclusion would be “It was a resource wasting activity”, and the recommendation that I think that will get 100% votes from all students would be “ Remove the course from the course list”.

But I guess I had been mess up with all the formats for each branch research content, sorry uh, I didn’t really pay my full attenetion on tech. comm., furthermore I have got severe STM syndromes. =x

Hmmm.. for those who do not know, or had been blur for such a long time, or having STM like me, I was born in year 1985, considered as a senior citizen in audi population, and currently in the third year of engineering course in MMU, which is more known as Money Making University, with a lot rules and regulations there which barely got anyone who knows what were those for. For those who really interested in the term MMU, do feel free to search online or ask me to send u the official link. (can’t post it here, later tio caught jiu die kao kao le.. >_<) And no, please don’t say me pro for doing that seems-so-great course. I was just a half-pail-water girl who try to tipu makan there.

Ok, back to the topic. The grading policy was in-class quizzes contribute a total of 10% of our final results, and it became the only reason the lecture hall was full of students. (It is an abnormal situation if a lecture hall with capacity around 500 seats to be all or almost all filled with human, as the normal rate of utilization was, ermm, 10%.)

It was the quiz session again, and we are ready to copy the notes again. However, my luck is bad enough that my printer sot jor (yea, f**k the the noob Ca**n printer) that I wasn’t able to print any new notes, and also I forgot to bring the previous one that I printed out. So I was just sitting there, see if I can get the notes or answer from my friend to copy. Else I would just go for the next lecture session for another group, since the title will be the same.

The unusual thing was, the lecturer keep emphasizing that those who get caught for copying will be given zero, and said something about the integrity test. I even kept the A4 paper written with my name into the plastic folder and waiting for the class to end. Then she walked up and looked at us while she passing the attendance sheet to us. I got no choice but to take out the name-written paper and place it on my table, pretending I was doing the quiz.

Near to the end, she played a psychological game with us. She said : “ I saw many of you are copying and it will be a zero if I caught you. Here’s the deal, for those who did not cheat and do it by themselves, you may bring it forward and hand it in. For the others, you may choose to either hand in and get caught, or you keep it with you and write an explanation on the reason you cheat, then I may consider to give you either zero or 2. ( there are 5 quizzes, 2 marks each)

I showed my paper to my friends and we laughed. It was BLANK, as my initial plan was not to hand in during this session. Then I was told the quiz title for the next session will be different. It was too late for me to write anything, and it was a stupid act to write the “explanation”.

So I brought the blank paper to the lecturer and ask if I can hand in the blank ones. She accepted, any there goes the first-blanked-answer-sheet of my life. Friends were surprised when I told them about this, and they say I will not get zero, but 1 mark for my honesty. LMAO.. now I know my name and ID number written on a paper worth 1 mark..

In the memories of my first blank answer sheet.. ROFL >_<

-FreeDoM-ETa

2008-02-16T19:36:00.011+08:00

-1- -FreeDoM-

This was my 2nd in audition, for the past 12 levels. For those who do not know me before this, my 1st IGN was waiwai6017180, as you would be familiar with the series of numbers. That was my old mobile phone numbers, which spent my 1 month salary when I was still 18, and end up stolen by a friend of mine, though I have no proof on that.

I guess the main reason that I was still a –FreeDoM-er now would be that they were my 1st bunch of good friends who taught me a lot in audi, and I felt reluctant to leave them even after a very long time they missing in action. I do appreciates the friendships between us, and always hoping for their returning—even a little gathering will do.

However, things do not happened as how we wanted to. I was once a loner in free channel, when I 1st leveled into freedom, as I was told that they are not going to level beyond novice. And I was glad that I got accompanied by a lovely pro girl, thanks to KAJI_witch aka Melissa, you help me past my hard time in audi. ^^

There were always the time where I was called “freedom”, and I hate that. But what to do? People thought that the “-FreeDoM-“ in my IGN was part of my creation. No one knows that was a guild, even I myself can’t be sure that it was a guild. Of often, my answer to people question “-FreeDoM- is a guild?” was “not really, it’s more to a bunch of good friends.”

Then there was the time when I saw a lot of guild fight thingy in audi, mega battle among guilds, and guild bullies, which makes me have the thought of staying out of any guild, as which ever guild would have the possibility to get involved in the guild fights.

Anyway, the real reasons that I stayed in –FreeDoM-, that I thought, were :

1. I was not ready to leave –FreeDoM- .. I still love them. Though there were just 5 of us, and half of them vanished for some times – 1 indulged in RO, 1 working, 1 is friend of the RO-addict, 1 uses another account, and 1 is me.

2. Don’t feel like involve in any guild – do not want to got involved in any guild fight, or to cause any guild fight (I will feel guilty for making other people having fight because of me).

3. Don’t feel like being other people’s dog, if you were to observe in audi, members of some guilds are to absolutely obey the guild leader’s order.. Please excuse me if I did interpreted it in the wrong way..

4. The truth among all reasons :: I WAS NOT QUALIFY FOR ANY GUILD.. lolx.. (don’t say that I’m noob cause I knew it very well).

-2- ETa

Eta is a small letter Greek alphabet, η. Do refer to your dictionary’s appendix or microsoft’s character map. A science study will be able to meet this symbol quite frequently, it represents viscosity of a liquid, or intrinsic impedance (electromagnetic theory), or power efficiency. Ignored these scientific terms if you can’t comprehend them. For more descriptions, feel free to visit to wikipedia :: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eta_(letter) .

I’ve chosen this because its pronunciation sound nice, and my handwriting for this symbol was the best.. (well, I wrote gamma γ better, but it doesn’t sound nice.. hehe.. XP )

Simple and easy. Isn’t it?

-3- Next IGN

To leave or not to leave. Had been discuss with the only remainder other than me previously, and he agreed with my plan. But still not sure what would be the next IGN, thought of remain the same nick by only removing –FreeDoM- :: ***Eta***, or to get a totally different IGN. There were few ideas in my mind :: FallenAngel ( my recent psychological status ), or SmoKie ( from a song I like—你抽的烟 /the cigarette you smoke).

Must have it decided soon. Sick of let people calling me “freedom”, and bored of seeing non—FreeDoM-er using freedom IGN in audi. Just wanna get myself out of it.

Friends, help me with the decision? Post it in comment.^^

p/s :: I wonder why is this bothering me.. Been into some weird thought recently, forgive me if I did offended you. <33

And pals, sorry for the late update.. >_<

Nightmares #2

2008-01-20T21:36:00.002+08:00

It was the next night after the 1st nightmare. I was again wasn’t able to sleep, due to the irritating noise out of my house. There were someone fixing the road, showing that the national election is approaching.

I was then again reading a book, called “Diary of a Rapist”. I am not a pervert, just trying to understand how a pervertic people think. However, it is not a good book, I consider. It was boring, nothing much but only some details description on the thought of a rapist, and some description on the act of rape. If I was the book critic, it would not be my recommendation.

Then it was another bunch of weird noise after the heavy machine out there was gone. First, someone climbed through the zinc pieces ( the one that people use as roof), then someone walked beside my house, at last the chicken in the barn behind my house were noisy. Apparently, someone disturbed them, and I believed it was the same person.

The series of strange sound aware me, and my heart beat goes up fast. I became nervous, worrying if there will be some robbery or what will happen to us. I was able to get a cutter along with me before I went to wake my dad up.

Then there was another series of noise which obviously not from only one person, but a whole group of people who were looking for something. Shouting, scolding, screaming, whatever related action you can think of, they were all here. They did the same thing as the previous person did, and got to behind of my house.

My dad opened a small slit at the window, and tried to peep to figure out what was going on. We dare not make any noise, so that we would not be realized and harmed by them. We hid when they shine to torch light towards the windows.

And we remained in silence until they were gone.

There was the sound of a truck, and walkie-talkie before they gone off. Concluding everything that I heard, my hypothesis (eeps, science language =x) was that, a drug addict had escaped and hiding behind of my house, then the polices came and captured him backed, sending him off by a truck.

My dad couldn’t sleep after that. And I’m feeling my burden again, to own a house soon so that we could move out as soon as possible. However, it seems to be impossible now as my dad was too old for a house loan, my sister wasn’t able to afford and I was still a student.

Money is evil.

I went on to the bed, and there comes another series of noise, of a woman’s screams…

( to be continue…)

Heartache

2008-01-13T05:45:00.001+08:00

Been in some issue which jokes make friend angry, in a chat.

I was so sad for being in such situation again, as what I experienced not long ago.

Previously, I made some jokes on an audi friend who keep looking for girls in audi ( I called it “despo”, short form for desperate). I apologized, and been scolded by him for around an hour non-stop, with his highly proficient English, and extremely good memory which he could remember each n every single word I used in the jokes I made. And yet I failed to obtain his forgiveness though I make no defend through out the whole hour scold, but apology, repeatedly.

Then we are no longer friends.

Another scenario happened today, for the same reason. One of my close audi friend mad on me for some stupid and harmless jokes. ( I believed they are, but don’t know how he interpreted it. Let me know how you think, k?)

“again my apology. if this make no help, thn forget it.. i gv up. y do i care so much abt som1 i din even met?” --- msn message, 13-01-2008, 03:03.

Heartache, the only way that I felt, at that moment.

I have had an unpleasant past, and friends are the people who raised me up through out my childhood, and I’m glad for having them by my sides. Thus, I do cherish each and every friendship in my life, which happened to be my greatest treasure which I appreciated the most. I’m trying very hard not to hurt any of my friends, as I know I’m too frank in speech. I tried not to keep any hate toward my friends, after their betrayal. I did everything, to avoid myself from losing any friend.

Therefore, losing a friend would be my greatest pain to me, especially when I was the one who did the thing, tried my best to rescue the situation, and failed eventually. It’s even worst when I don’t even get the chance to know they no longer needing you as their friend, or the reason they start ignoring you.

*it was just, heartache*

--This is why do I care so much about you, someone I didn’t even met, because you are my friend.--

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The below part is dedicated to my beloved audi papa, Alex. To those who read this, please make no judgment on simplicity (when you don’t even know him personally), as this is between. The reason I put it in this post was to also show I feel in the issue. Appreciate you coorperations~~ thank you!

Dear Alex,

I’m neither trying to annoy nor irritating you, but try to let you know why do I so frustrated for “waiting”. Waiting is a scary term for me, as I’ve been in waiting condition for too many times. Waiting for my to bring me home during primary 1, but never appears because she was sick. Waiting for my so called “boyfriend’s” (an ex- now) call, but he never did, ended up with I found out that he got another girl and he was just playing with me). Waiting some promises that never been realized, by any of the promisor.

I’m not sure whether you have been in such situation that you are waiting and you don’t even know what you are waiting for, and it keeps you waiting, forever. It will makes you get into a condition that you felt anxious, frustrated and yet you have to keep waiting as you have no other choice.

Anxiety kills an elephant.

I’ve been in such situation frequently. Remember the day that I met you in audi? I was mad about audi people around me. I pm-ed my papa#1 he say wait, so do all other friends. I thought there will be some replies further on, so I waited, but there’s nothing but the annoying lobby song. They keep me waiting forever, and I became an idiot who do not know what she’s waiting for. Idiot, a funny way I used to call myself, isn’t it?

Talk to me if you can’t get what I’m trying to express, I’ll be happy to share my weird thoughts. ( To everyone who feels the same way too.. ^^)

Lastly, sorry for making you mad and I do care about you. *please remember that I did felt heartache, for you*

I love you, papa~ <33

Nightmares #1

2008-01-12T02:56:00.002+08:00

Went backed to my home in the past few days. It's been four months, I realized.

Couldn’t sleep in the night as I have used to the life that staying up whole night until dawn.

There's nothing I can do in the house other than reading the books that been lying in my room for months.

Went on bed around 5 something after finishing a book by Hiyawu, my favorite Taiwan online novel author. And got awaken by a nightmare around 6 something.

It was terrible nightmare. (hmm, all nightmares are scary, right? Then what am I crapping? Duh~) There goes the scenes in my dream :

I was a in a school compound, during a camp I think. All people are bathing and all water pipes run out of water in a sudden. In the beginning, we (the campers and the teachers) thought that it was due to some sort of “ghost” thingy, as the environment there was so gloomy, and coldness gone through our veins, then a shiver running through our body. Then it turned out that a big gang of monkey appeared in front of us.

It’s kindda funny isn’t it? However, it ain’t a funny thing. Those monkey are obviously are ready for a war. The scenery then suddenly changed to a cliff, and we are at the 2 opposite, with a deep valley between us. They started the whole thing by shooting something to us, a bullet if not mistaken. The fight began when our teacher shot a ball to them, trying to make them fall into the deep deep valley. All student are gathered closely behind the teachers, and paying full attention to the “war”.

I was sitting at the last row of the team, and out of nowhere, 2 person of brown skin shown up behind us. They were sitting quiet at the beginning, chatting among themselves. I heard them said something like one of them used to have a long hair, then forced to cut it short. After that, they took out a knife and approaching us, start cutting my friend’s hair.

There comes the frightening part (this scared me, but not sure if it will do the same to you too), at which they did not cut a friend’s hair, but directly poked the knife into my friend’s head, repeatedly. They did the same to those who refused to let them cut their hair. I moved towards the teachers when I saw them start stabbing my friend, hope to gain some help from them. However, that was useless. Then I realized the monkeys side was the right side that we are supposed to be at. It’s too late to regret. I stepping backward towards the edge of the cliff when they approaching me, then I fell off the edge in the next second.

Then that’s the end of the nightmares, I was awaked. There is nothing much in the remaining part of that dream when I fell asleep again. I was being saved by someone as I’m falling down(suddenly though of a childhood song while I’m writing this.. London bridge is falling down~~ lolx..), who hide in a cave on the cliff, the plans of survival and nothing else.

The moral of the nightmare ( not “story” because it’s real) :

Human beings are the most dangerous creatures in the world, as you will never expect what they would do to you, how they do it, and the reason they doing it. Compared to human, animals are simply harmless. And even if they harms, they will eventually mastered by the humans, as they only creatures that have the “natural processor” to study everything, including themselves.

I’m feeling more and more insecure for living in this world, staying in a place of bad security which robbery, rape, and murder cases are happening each and every second, in a place that looks so far, yet too close to us.

When you listening to the real experience of someone you know, or reading the news from the papers, you hardly dare to imagine the scenery when the case is happening. The stabs, the blood, the pain of the victim… That’s the reason I felt frighten when the people are stabbing SOMEONE I KNOW, INTO THE HEAD. *shiver*

And, I believed each dream bring a meaning, or a hint to our life. I’d been dreaming of my real sister and cousin sister died. And guess what? I woke up in tears. I referred to some website, I got the opposite explanation that the “died” person in dreams will live long. I wonder how they get the conclusion, and whether it’s reliable.

If there is any explanation to the nightmares I’ve been in, please do let me know. I would appreciate it. ^^ Hmm, this shouldn’t go any longer, else I will get kill for being kill your eyes’ cells.. Haha, hope I’m not boring you.

Cheerz~

p/s : Why do nightmares sound like a fantasy story sia? *scratching head* Do you fell the same? =x (char char says she likes fiction stories when i told her this.. fiction sia~ ==)

** Update to the previous post : -KNS-KiDz official new ign ( official O.o?? lolz) would be -L0sT-xBlaze.. <33

English

2008-01-11T10:48:00.000+08:00

This is my 1st blog ever, in English.

I am not good in English, or I should say, not even in the "fair" level. Chinese is always my favourite language that I'm proud of, that I have a far far better ability to express the most thought in the least words.. Amazing, isn't it?

The next thing in your mind would be : then why English?
Here goes the reason behind the existance on this blog, in English : to share thing and thoughts with my beloved banana[1] friends.
I doubt that "to improve my English ability" could be one of the reason for making it in English.. Haha.. Point my error(s) out if you happened to spot it (them).. ^^

Been addicted to some online games recently, some games that I called it as noob games when being asked by my friend.
Why? Because all the games I'd involved in are to be categorized as the reflection games, as per term "reflection", it requires only the reflective response reacted by our brain (the part that called medula-oblongata[2]) without consuming any of the brain power.
I'm a lazy person, who always try to reduce the use of brain unnecessarily. This is the main reason that I've been in o2jam and audition, but still a very lousy player.. (you will agree when you meet me in games.. haha XP).
Other games like maple, dota etc, I would just raise the white flag and say : Sorry, I can't handle it..

Most audi-er[3] are from sg[4], and there are some who barely focus their study on Chinese languages. [5]
And they are the main reason that make me reluctant to quit audi, though I'd been so frustrated for being addicted in audi, for not able to live my life in a proper way that I was supposed to be.
Here comes the quote : "The best part in online gaming is ain't about the games, but the people you meet in the games" -- by -FreeDoM-ETa[6] (lolx?)

Last, but not least (wondering why people like to use this?), I would like to dedicate the blog to :

1. the 100% banana -MS-KiRASEN
~beloved audi friend who always looking for 2nai for her real, also audi bf tuoxiong, and in favour of half-inch thingy.. =x ps kira, exposed you out..

2. the partially banana tianyew
~a guy who talked about virginity and sex when I 1st met him in audi. Not sure if he's total or partial banana, but he used to told me that he can't read my sms when I send it in chinese..

3. the don't know is- or is-not- banana (I believe they are not)
-SAF-PRINCE ++ -KNS-KiDz[7]
~my beloved audi papa#2 and audi korkor who gave me lots of love and the touch of family.. (hmm.. warm~ ^^)

4. the totally non-banana DoLLYKilleR (hope I din miss-type her ign, sorry if I did..=x)
~ my beloved audi mei + partially real gan meimei who I use to les in o2.. haha, how ironic. Also, a girl who is crazy about her "lion" and keep emo-ing in front of me each and every single time I met her online.. Refer to her blog then you know why she is not a banana..

I supposed my 1st post shouldn't be this long. But, whatever~ To those good friend I TER-missed[8] out, sorry and do remember that you are important to me too.. ^^ Never upset for not being in the list. Love you all..<33>
Cheerz~~

**Notes:

[1] Banana :: Chinese who do not know Chinese languages
[2] Medula-oblongata :: Part of human brain that resposibled for uncontrolled reaction, including reflective reaction. However, I'm not sure whether it is the right part as I returned the knowledge to my beloved biology teacher long time ago.. =x)
[3] audi-er :: People who plays Audition, one of the online game with several servers all around the world. For me typically, the Sigapore server.
[4] sg :: Singapore in short, used the most during chat in most games.
[5] No offence. ^^
[6] -FreeDoM-ETa :: A lousy audi-er, who always being mis-called as "freedom" by the others.
[7] -KNS-KiDz :: Changing his ign soon. Will update in short.
[8] TER-missed :: TER- is a malay prefix, which brings a meaning of "accidentally". As an example, TERjatuh = accidetally fell down (FYI, jatuh=fall down). Therefore, TER-missed = accidentally missed out. XP